S.H.A.P.E. Assessment Results

Thank you Bethany Beeghley for taking the SHAPE Assessment. We encourage you to meet with a Church Leader that you respect, to go over your results, so that they can help you discover a place to serve in the church and/or community, and also to help you fine-tune your 5 Main Focuses/Priorities listed at the bottom of this email under the ‘Wrapping it up’ section. May God Bless You!

[S]piritual Gifts

Here is how your spiritual gifts scored (in alphabetical order):

93%

40%

96%

68%

90%

78%

65%

100%

78%

To see descriptions on the Spiritual Gifts and how you can use them to further Christ’s Kingdom on earth, visit this link.

This gift’s evident in my life in the following ways:
I like working with my hands. I like taking situations and making them go from good to great. I love helping others get ahead, and make progress. I see needs before they are expressed and can meet that need before someone asks. I like being one step ahead of everyone to make the situation or event flow smoother.

This gift’s evident in my life in the following ways:
I like bringing a smile to a face, picking up hands which hang down, and bringing out the best in people. Because I can discern clearly most times, I can speak life changing words and change their lives, situations and bring a fresh perspective. People often seek me out for counsel and advice.

This gift’s evident in my life in the following ways:
I love organizing, creating structure, making the flow of things better, easier, and quicker!! I am good about tying up loose ends from a group or team and delegating for others to make sure it gets done. I like to be in charge and make things happen. I prefer the Administration role over the Leader role; however if the Leader is slacking or not being an effective Leader, I have no problem stepping up to the plate and leading the crowd to the finish line. I like 2nd in command the most because it is an important role to help the Leader become all they can be, be a go-between the Leader and crowd, and help the Leader see loopholes in their leading. It makes me feel valuable, useful, wanted, and needed.

[H]eart

1. Help sexually and relationally broken people find deep healing and lasting freedom. To give them the tools to fight their way thru the thickets of the years of lies and locust eaten pasts and discover redemption, triumph, their voice, and their dignity. I love seeing shame, generational curses, and lies broke off, in Jesus Name. I love seeing their eyes light up with their new name from Jesus. Mostly I love fighting on behalf of those who never have used their voice and showing them how to fight for themself and use their voice. It is the deepest honor to be trusted with their most darkest secrets that have never been exposed to the healing Light of Jesus.

2. Flowers and floral design…they tie the whole event together, beautify the world and speak music to my soul. They are mysterious, magical, meaningful, and majestic. I could stare at them for hours and never get tired of studying them, designing them, touching them. They breathe life into a place inside me that makes me come fully alive, feel like a multimillionaire Queen, and speak a language in my heart that cannot be written with words.

3. This one is multifaceted. A) I love studying relationships, friendships, people and what makes it all work. B) I love being alone in nature and discovering myself, what makes me tick, what makes me come alive, what things I didn’t know about myself and breaking through past barriers to find my freedom filled future.
So, to sum that up…I love seeing cause and effect, how things work or are supposed to work, why it doesn’t work, or that it did work and what do I have to bring to the table to make it work better and the best it can be. I’m just fascinated by these things and nothing makes me come alive more than figuring out stuff. I feel powerful, invincible, and on top of the world when I have a breakthrough. The truth has set me free more times than I can count. I also like to see how things are made, work, and designed. The process is fascinating to me.

I’d say I like working with people older than me as they help me grow up. However if I’m leading a group, I like sometimes 14-16yr and mostly 18-30yr as I have much to give them. Especially single, never married women, I have much to offer them from my experiences. As for kids, age 2yr and up, so I can teach them stuff. Type of people is ones who are willing to learn, grow, and be taught.

Definitely Living Waters. Now currently Dave Ramsey’s Financial Peace University classes. Ranch type ministries that help teens & young adults heal and also give them practical life skill lessons, especially for young men to learn how to be masculine and to become a man’s man. And I definitely have a big heart for single women, not married ages 18-40. I am passionate about marriage and the groundwork before marriage so you are your best self before you marry and have dealt with your past before a relationship.

Marriage/family issues
Abuse/violence
Other – Singles

[A]bilities

Housekeeper/House Cleaner, Dog Caretaker, Childcare worker, Floral Designer, Leader on a team for Living Water’s program.

Nanny. Operating a Bed & Breakfast/ Inn Keeper. School Teacher grades 1-3. Operating a floral design shop and designing flowers. Managing a Salad Bar and cutting mass quanities of fruits and vegetables. Leading and managing teams for large conventions in activities, food service and public relations. Working on a farmer’s market farm in produce and cut flowers. Managing a Companion Caregiver business and caring for elderly ladies with physical limitations, speaking on their behalf and working along side Professional Medical Teams in Hospitals. Being an end of life caregiver and guiding familes through the best process. Guiding others through the journey of grief and grieving. Being a Teacher and Speaker in sexual and relational ministry, and bringing a voice for the abused, broken, voiceless, and neglected souls. I served as Hospitality and Head Chef for a new church plant. Working in Catering food, Event Managing, and Restaurant serving/food prep. Managing a Floral & Gift Department in a high class grocery store. Sales Representative in wholesale plants and flowers, driving delivery routes, phone calling and Plant Caretaker. Owner and Manager of a Floral Design and Special Events business. Founder of Bella Ley Ministries.

Special top skills are in floral designing, speaking, teaching, leading, planning, and organizing.

Sexual and relational brokenness issues… Emotional dependency, Narcissism, Same Sex Friendships, Femininity, Sexual Brokenness, Gender Identity, Loving Your Self, and similar topics.
Also as a School Teacher grades 1-3, I taught subjects of Math, Language, Reading, Phonics, Writing, Spelling, History, Bible, Devotions, Singing, Physical Education, and Art.

I have also given Cooking classes and Gardening classes.

My eyes that notice details others don’t, my hands to do work, my voice to be heard, and mostly my discernment to give me insight on what is happening often before it happens. 1st would be my discernment…I rely on it heavily to stay on track. My 2nd best assets is the gift to encourage and see and call out hidden gifts in others.

[P]ersonality

Reserved

Low Risk

50-50 Peace Maker/Challenger

50-50 People/Project Driven

Leader

50-50 Routine/Variety

Your Primary was ‘The Lion’, with your Secondary coming in as ‘The Beaver’, and here are the descriptions of your Personalities, and how they can be used for God

Lion- This personality likes to lead. The lion is good at making decisions and is very goal-oriented. They enjoy challenges, difficult assignments, and opportunity for advancement. Because lions are thinking of the goal, they can step on people to reach it. Lions can be very aggressive and competitive. Lions must learn not to be too bossy or to take charge in other’s affairs.

Strength: Goal-oriented, strong, direct
Weakness: Argumentative, too dictatorial
Limitation: Doesn’t understand that directness can hurt others, hard time expressing grace

Beaver- Organized. Beavers think that there is a right way to do everything and they want to do it exactly that way. Beaver personalities are very creative. They desire to solve everything. Desire to take their time and do it right. Beavers do not like sudden changes. They need reassurance.

Strength: High standards, order, respect
Weakness: Unrealistic expectations of self & others, too perfect.
Limitation: Seeing the optimistic side of things, expressing flexibility

[E]xperience

I was 13 when I was baptized on October 19, 1995, out of fear of dying and going to hell. I joined the OGBB when I was baptized. I stayed a member of it till 1999, and transfered to OGBBNC. Several years later, I accepted Jesus into my heart around age 25/26. I was then rebaptized in Christian baptism after I left OGBBNC. I was a member at New Life Community Church for about 2 yrs. I was a part of Rising Church 1 year. Then a member at Open Range Fellowship Church for about 2 years. Then I’ve been a member at Liberty Christian Fellowship Church over 2 years and still current. And I have been attending Journey Church recently about 2 months.
I would say I became a Christian when I came to the Lord in my utter brokenness and asked Jesus into my heart. My life began to change from that point on as I was healed and watched my arm grow out, found freedom from my abuse, healed in my heart from deep brokenness and abuse, and I left my upbringing, religion, family, community and everything I knew to follow my Love, My Husband, Jesus Christ to the one place I never wanted to go, Missouri.

The Rising- Hospitality Coordinator and Head Chef/Cook, 1 year. I welcomed guests, ran a team of 3-5 people, gathered finances and managed a budget for meals, did food shopping and food prep for 60 plus people weekly, cooked meals, served guests food and managed clean up teams.

Living Waters Leadership Team at Vineyard Overland Park Church- I’ve been a Leader 9-10 years working on the Leadership Team in Teaching, Speaking, Leading a Small Group and serving with duties of the program.

At NLCC, I served in cleaning the church. At ORF, I served on the Worship and Praise team in the choir and on Hospitality team. At LCF, I serve on Children’s Childcare team. I haven’t got involved in Journey yet, just thinking about possibly the greeter team.

1) Getting my GED to graduate high school.
2) Graduating from Kansas School of Floral Design with a diploma in Floral Design and Floral Sop Operations.
3) Top/Favorite one: Graduating from JCCC with my Certificate in Floral Design.

1) Finding Living Waters, going through their program and becoming a Leader on their Leadership Team. Receiving the healing from the program.
2) Having Shelly as my counselor and all the hundreds of hours of breakthrough she walked with me through. I could never repay her.
3) Meeting Margaret and trusting her as I left all I knew to walk a life I was called to as a Christian free from religion. With her, I have became the person I am today and am where I am walking in so much freedom because she blazed a trail and walked her talk for me to follow. A billion dollars could not repay her for the hours I talked her ear off these last 7 plus years. I am deeply indebted.

Meeting Kevin Hoksbergen…he changed my life forever for the best me, who I am today. I never saw him coming, slipping in my life with quietness, calmness, stability and a much needed safe, masculine presence in my life. He crossed solid concrete rock walls no male had ever made it over or through and patiently waited for my heart to recognize the value it had inside. He knew exactly when to challenge me to push through my fears and he knew when to hold me and let my tears soak through his shirt. He made me laugh harder than any male has ever made me laugh, brought joy and spontaneous fun to my daily life and left memories that are still rising to the surface years long after he left my side. He set the bar so high that I have raised my standards knowing there are still high quality men out there who are waiting for a high quality woman. I never saw him coming and finally years after he is long gone from my side, I realize the fullness of the deep, unexplainable, unexpected treasure he was in and to my heart. My heart never took the chance to open and blossom fully from his kindness as I was so scared to fall for a male…and he was the one who somehow got to the center and thawed my iced heart out. Like the puddle dripping from his swim shorts on to the sidewalk, and my heart exploded with unexplainable feelings as he stood patiently holding my car door open, waiting once again for me to respond to his offering of his masculinity. My feminine heart learned to start to trust through these masculine offerings and because of him- today, my heart waits for the masculine godly man who will offer himself for the glory of the kingdom and to further God’s will here on earth through a relationship. Meeting “Hawk” will forever be in the top 5 best experiences of my life. I am grateful for God placing him in my life, sparing his life and giving me a ring side seat to watch Hawk’s journey.

The multiple facets of abuse and neglect I suffered from my parent’s and the curses and sins of the generations before me.

Meeting and falling for a boy who was not facing his brokenness, getting healing or counseling and letting his charm and seductive, manipulative ways waste years off my life. God used his brokenness to trigger nearly every wound and pain buried in my past and rise to the surface. God used the false security to lead me to Himself to find healing, receive my true identity, and realize that Hawk was the real man my heart should have leaped for. My friendlationship with this boy stuck Peter-Panning it is one of the most painful, yet in Jesus Christ, the most redemptive pieces to lead to healing my past and embracing the future of marrying a man who treats me like a treasure like Hawk did.
I now have great righteous anger towards any guy or gal stuck in a narcissistic relationship or friendlationship and will bodly speak out to get them to see the truth and seek and find freedom and healing.

My struggle with gender identity, and all the lies I believed about myself. The work Jesus has done is astounding to my past and future and my heart sings because it is so joyful. My pain became His gain. My past gives my future, words to last. This shaped me 100%. I also say the starvation has definitely impacted my eating, my health, and why I stand up against parent’s punishing kids for withholding food or drink from them. I hurt deeply for the hungry and the homeless.

Wrapping It Up

The Challenge: Based upon your S.H.A.P.E. Assessment above (the way God wired you), If you knew you couldn’t fail … and ‘lack of money, or time’ was not an obstacle… list your Top 3 Things you would ‘Focus’ your Life on, next to #1 Loving God & #2 Loving Your Neighbor (these would be your ‘3 God-Sized Dreams’ for your life)?

1. My Relationship with GOD

2. My Relationship with Others

• Putting Your Spouse First
• Your Kids Second
• Everyone Else After those

3. 1st and immediately, like right now: I will purchase Pipestone Canyon Ranch in cash, build a large Family Cabin Bunkhouse sleeping 8-12 people + 2 infants under 2 yrs old, build a Ranch Hand Cabin for guys and a Cabin for girls and begin hosting retreats and seminars. I will have young men working on the ranch with horses, a couple cows, chickens, dogs and cats, and young ladies working in the retreat and ministry side of things in the event center. 2nd) Start Bella Ley Ministries to run at PCRanch, travel and speak to single women, and have an office team running a booklet course for single women that I have written. It will be a similar program to Making the most of Your Single Life, but focused on what Jesus has for it that He has told me about already. I would be already done writing the Soaring Solo Unlimited program and the Psalms 23 book God told me about if I had unlimited income right now.

4. Travel to Hawaii and explore the wonders of God’s world. Just seeing the beauty in nature and soaking it up. While I travel I will be doing BLM and sharing my testimony with other women, single women and also male/female conferences. Travel also to Ireland, London, Princess Diana’s grave, England and Florida and Alaska. Every state I have not been. Oh yes, and Texas to meet Cody and learn to surf, lol!! 😀 And take Layna, Tonya and some ladies to Hawaii to celebrate our 40th birthdays! And take my entire family members to Hawaii for a week and I pay for plane tickets, housing, food, touring, florals and family photo shoot. 😀 Yes, please!! Amen!

5. Aquire a God sized sum of money and pay off ALL my parent’s debts secretly and then give them 2 million dollars on top of that, give my 4 sisters each a million dollars, give Layna a million dollars, give each of my nephews and nieces $10,000.00 (ten thousand), buy Pipestone Canyon Ranch in cash and pay any outstanding debts George and Candy have, give Hawk 5 million dollars to cover all health and college debts, buy the Victorian house in Baldwin City and hire Sara and Joanna to live there and be care takers of it or build them a house next door to it and cover all expenses for them indefinitely, give 5 thousand to Willow Springs and any other church that impacted my life and God said to give it to; I would build a tiny village houses community program (like the model I already seen in that video) for the homeless in Lawrence, Baldwin, and Liberty; give Shelly 10 million; give Margaret Peters 10 million; give Living Waters Leadership Team a salary at VOP church and provide meals each week all 5-6 months for the next 10-20 years; and sponser 100 children thru Ralph’s China sponsership & Compassion; support missionaries like Sam and Danielle and Merle and Judy; and become a secret Philanthropist. Like at Christmas, giving surprise gifts and cash.